Early Mornings, GRRR!

Monday, January 26, 2009

Early Mornings, GRRR!

When I woke up this morning, I felt a little funky. I am not talking sick, I just mean that there was not joy in my heart. I thought desperately of ways that I could somehow get out of going to work. I wanted to stay home with my kids. The problem with being a new business owner is though, that the buck stops here. Metaphorically and literally.

Hmmm.... if I just keep sleeping, reality might go away. What if I Just flat out don't get up? Why should I have to do this? It is just not fair!!!! AWWWWW!!!! I was on a train to nowhere real fast and was not sure how to pull myself out of this funked mood. Clearly my disillusionment of staying home was not going to happen and I needed to get my rear in gear.

When you are the first person that people see in the morning at the coffee shop, there are certain expectations that people have of you to start their morning out just right. Frowny faces and crappy moods are not going to cut it people!

I decided to turn to the only place that I knew for help. I took a quiet moment with the Lord. I have to say that this is usually the ticket for me. However, this time it was not enough. I basically had one chance left, and absolutely no time. But in a last ditch effort, I grabbed my Bible. I don't know what I was looking for, maybe a sign? But somehow, I must have gotten the right perspective and then BOOM! There it was, just what I needed when I needed it.

Psalm 32

Of David. A maskil. ^[a]

1 Blessed is he
whose transgressions are forgiven,
whose sins are covered.

2 Blessed is the man
whose sin the LORD does not count against him
and in whose spirit is no deceit.

3 When I kept silent,
my bones wasted away
through my groaning all day long.

4 For day and night
your hand was heavy upon me;
my strength was sapped
as in the heat of summer.
Selah

5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you
and did not cover up my iniquity.
I said, "I will confess
my transgressions to the LORD "—
and you forgave
the guilt of my sin.
Selah

6 Therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you
while you may be found;
surely when the mighty waters rise,
they will not reach him.

7 You are my hiding place;
you will protect me from trouble
and surround me with songs of deliverance.
Selah

8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

9 Do not be like the horse or the mule,
which have no understanding
but must be controlled by bit and bridle
or they will not come to you.

10 Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him.

11 Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!

Ah, there it is. I need to rejoice in the Lord. Throw away everything else and just flat out be glad. When I cast everything else up to Him, He restores that joy in my heart. So, I pulled myself together, got in the car, cranked up the tunes, and was on my way. I may not have been perfect, but I had a much better perspective, and I knew I would be fine.