It has been quite some time since I have entered any news on how our son Charter is doing with his type 1 diabetes. It is still painful to talk about. My emotions still will run wild. I still have to look to God to calm my anxious spirit. There is however some hope in the bleakness of this chronic illness. We have not of course given up hope in a miraculous healing, but we also realize that there are things brought into our lives that we do not care to experience, that God can use to His glory in ways quite beyond our comprehension.
So as to a brief update. In our crazed research trying to locate answers in an area where there seems to be none, we come across that glimmer of hope. Our family has began a radical lifestyle change in hopes of helping Charter. We are now eating raw vegan foods. This adventure actually began in February, and we did a major part of the transition in June. I want to share the results we have seen and will soon, but I had to at least get it documented that we have/ are implementing these changes. So stay tuned for the journey.
Monday, December 20, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Just Had To Brag
Wow! What an amazing experience. Our two oldest kids had the opportunity to participate in the musical King Island Christmas at the Warehouse Theater in Yakima, WA. They just finished their run of 10 shows over the past three weeks. We had the most splendid time. It is hard to put into words how proud you can be of your children. I just love watching them do something they love so much. Just had to brag.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Women = Emotional = So What!
Yes, I am a woman. Shocker, women are more emotional. That is what I feel like I have been this week, one big ball of emotion. I was trying to evaluate if there might be some outside stimuli that could be prodding the waves of emotion. Not being able to put my finger on one thing in particular, I just chalked it up to the fact that... I am a woman. I have the right to be emotional. I'll be that way if I wanna! So there. Women, if you need a day, a week, a month, or whatever to just be... right now is your time. Permission granted. At least that way I won't be emotional all alone. Wink!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
The Fast Lane
Wow, I can hardly believe that it is a year since I got my first speeding ticket... I blogged a bit about this when it happened being how it was "so detrimental" and all.
As I was reflecting on this not so shinning moment, it kinda got me started down another path of thought. When looking back, the bottom line was, I was going too fast no matter what the reason was, and I was clearly made to slow down at that moment in time.
But what about everyday life? Don't we often find ourselves speeding through everyday life? I know for me that this is just a fact that the fast lane is where I gravitate towards. There is always so much to do. There is no need to go into my list here because let's face it, we all have our own lists, and the base they are made up of look pretty much the same.
Sometimes though, we need to get out of the fast lane. Sometimes, we need to find the nearest exit and take it! Sometimes, we need to take the exit, and we don't. I have had a bit of each this week. Last Friday, I decided to take an "exit." We packed up the kids and headed out of town for a few days. It was great to have a break from the typical go go go.
But, apparently God wanted me to take another "exit." I wound up sick this week. Clearly this took me straight out of the fast lane. As miserable as being sick is, It has given me a bit of "me" time. The house looks crazy, but on the inside, I feel great. I read a couple books, read from my Bible, and spent some time with the Big Guy,... you get the picture.
Bottom line? Don't be afraid to take an exit from the fast lane every once in a while. Don't forget to stop and smell the roses, and don't ignore the Voice that tells you sometimes, you just need to be still.
As I was reflecting on this not so shinning moment, it kinda got me started down another path of thought. When looking back, the bottom line was, I was going too fast no matter what the reason was, and I was clearly made to slow down at that moment in time.
But what about everyday life? Don't we often find ourselves speeding through everyday life? I know for me that this is just a fact that the fast lane is where I gravitate towards. There is always so much to do. There is no need to go into my list here because let's face it, we all have our own lists, and the base they are made up of look pretty much the same.
Sometimes though, we need to get out of the fast lane. Sometimes, we need to find the nearest exit and take it! Sometimes, we need to take the exit, and we don't. I have had a bit of each this week. Last Friday, I decided to take an "exit." We packed up the kids and headed out of town for a few days. It was great to have a break from the typical go go go.
But, apparently God wanted me to take another "exit." I wound up sick this week. Clearly this took me straight out of the fast lane. As miserable as being sick is, It has given me a bit of "me" time. The house looks crazy, but on the inside, I feel great. I read a couple books, read from my Bible, and spent some time with the Big Guy,... you get the picture.
Bottom line? Don't be afraid to take an exit from the fast lane every once in a while. Don't forget to stop and smell the roses, and don't ignore the Voice that tells you sometimes, you just need to be still.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Oh, Your Love
I am weak, but you are strong. In your arms I am held in comfort and love. There is nothing in me or about me that is good, but You in me Lord changes all of that. As I give myself to you, and step away from myself, I am preparing room for you. As You inhabit my heart and my life, I am changed. The creature I once was is dying away, and I do not miss her. My only regret would be not letting go sooner. Life may break my heart, but You heal it. Joy abounds in You. Grace abounds in You. Mercy... Your mercy never fails.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Rough night last night.
Charter accidentally took the wrong insulin... long night with no sleep checking his BSL like a wild woman making sure we kept him in range. Crying silent tears, screaming silent screams, so no one would hear. Calling out to my Saviour, His comfort gets me through.
My Gma and Gpa Davis celebrated their 68th wedding anniversary. WOW! 68 years. Can you imagine. I love what a testament to love and commitment that is. They rock. What a great example in a society where people could care less about commitment, and care ALL about what makes them feel good at the time. My hat goes off to people who have the guts and courage to do the right thing.
Off to bed now. my pillow is calling my name as I type this jumble of nonsensical words. Goodnight.
My Gma and Gpa Davis celebrated their 68th wedding anniversary. WOW! 68 years. Can you imagine. I love what a testament to love and commitment that is. They rock. What a great example in a society where people could care less about commitment, and care ALL about what makes them feel good at the time. My hat goes off to people who have the guts and courage to do the right thing.
Off to bed now. my pillow is calling my name as I type this jumble of nonsensical words. Goodnight.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
A Question From God?
As I was studying today, I read about a man who had been asked a question by God. This man was asked "If I could give you one gift today, what would it be? If I had a silver platter out in front of you, what might you pick from it?"
I was shocked at how this question seemed so profound to me. At how I was suddenly caught off guard, how I instantly felt so small. I could not grasp nor even begin to comprehend the thought of God Himself, the Author of life, the Creator of the entire Universe standing in front of ME, offering me a gift of whatever I wanted.
Want. Now there is an interesting word that congers up many different thoughts and emotions. By definition...
Want: To desire greatly; wish for: To have need: The condition or quality of lacking something usual or necessary.
How about the word gift?
Gift: Something that is bestowed voluntarily and without compensation.
As I pondered on what I myself might ask God for, visions of money, success, and countless other things of this world poured through my mind. Then all of those thoughts came to a halt when I saw the face of my son, Charter. That was it! I would use my one gift to have the Lord heal my son of diabetes. Tears began to burn as I envisioned how this would change his life. Oh, what an amazing gift it would be! To watch my son be healed from this daily agony. What a glorious gift! My heart began to sing as I envisioned my own heart being healed of one its greatest pains.
My mind yet again stopped dead in its tracks. I felt sick, the room began to spin. In that moment, I knew the Lord a little bit better. I knew Him and understood Him in a way I have heard about, but never before had it been this real to me. It made my stomach drop. What made me go stone cold you ask?
You see, I realized that I already posses the only gift that I ever need from God. I have received the gift of salvation. God though, being God and all, one upped that and blessed me even further by sharing that same gift with my husband and all three of my children.
How did this make me understand God more though? A simple word... sacrifice. He knows all too well the dreaded word. He understands what it is like to watch His child suffer, to watch His child in pain... just like me.
This life we live however painful it may be, is only temporary. The pain we endure as Christians here on earth, is truly the worst that we will ever have it. For nonbelievers, their story is quite different. Their life here on earth is the best things will ever be. The ending of their stories will look much different from my own. That thought, the thought of people coming to the end of their lives, and being faced with eternal torture and death. The pain I felt for those people, that pain out weighed the pain of my mothers heart.
I understood the pain in God's sacrifice. How He would endure the pain of a million deaths watching His son be tortured because He knew that it would end. In that moment I could see through His eyes that pain and sacrifice are sometimes allowed. That there are things we can not always see, and that in the end, we have the comfort of our Fathers Heavenly arms to envelope us in His gracious love.
So, if I had to choose one gift from God today, it would be to save even one more life... eternally. To share the greatest gift of all time. I would sacrifice the opportunity for my son to be healed. He already has the best gift ever. Jesus is his Savior.
It is not that the desire for my son to be healed has gone away, but I know, every time, if I had to choose just one gift, I would give it to someone with a true want, remember want? Want: To desire greatly; wish for: To have need: The condition or quality of lacking something usual or necessary. There is nothing more necessary than salvation in Christ Jesus. After all, things on this earth will all pass away, but the gift of Salvation is eternal.
I was shocked at how this question seemed so profound to me. At how I was suddenly caught off guard, how I instantly felt so small. I could not grasp nor even begin to comprehend the thought of God Himself, the Author of life, the Creator of the entire Universe standing in front of ME, offering me a gift of whatever I wanted.
Want. Now there is an interesting word that congers up many different thoughts and emotions. By definition...
Want: To desire greatly; wish for: To have need: The condition or quality of lacking something usual or necessary.
How about the word gift?
Gift: Something that is bestowed voluntarily and without compensation.
As I pondered on what I myself might ask God for, visions of money, success, and countless other things of this world poured through my mind. Then all of those thoughts came to a halt when I saw the face of my son, Charter. That was it! I would use my one gift to have the Lord heal my son of diabetes. Tears began to burn as I envisioned how this would change his life. Oh, what an amazing gift it would be! To watch my son be healed from this daily agony. What a glorious gift! My heart began to sing as I envisioned my own heart being healed of one its greatest pains.
My mind yet again stopped dead in its tracks. I felt sick, the room began to spin. In that moment, I knew the Lord a little bit better. I knew Him and understood Him in a way I have heard about, but never before had it been this real to me. It made my stomach drop. What made me go stone cold you ask?
You see, I realized that I already posses the only gift that I ever need from God. I have received the gift of salvation. God though, being God and all, one upped that and blessed me even further by sharing that same gift with my husband and all three of my children.
How did this make me understand God more though? A simple word... sacrifice. He knows all too well the dreaded word. He understands what it is like to watch His child suffer, to watch His child in pain... just like me.
This life we live however painful it may be, is only temporary. The pain we endure as Christians here on earth, is truly the worst that we will ever have it. For nonbelievers, their story is quite different. Their life here on earth is the best things will ever be. The ending of their stories will look much different from my own. That thought, the thought of people coming to the end of their lives, and being faced with eternal torture and death. The pain I felt for those people, that pain out weighed the pain of my mothers heart.
I understood the pain in God's sacrifice. How He would endure the pain of a million deaths watching His son be tortured because He knew that it would end. In that moment I could see through His eyes that pain and sacrifice are sometimes allowed. That there are things we can not always see, and that in the end, we have the comfort of our Fathers Heavenly arms to envelope us in His gracious love.
So, if I had to choose one gift from God today, it would be to save even one more life... eternally. To share the greatest gift of all time. I would sacrifice the opportunity for my son to be healed. He already has the best gift ever. Jesus is his Savior.
It is not that the desire for my son to be healed has gone away, but I know, every time, if I had to choose just one gift, I would give it to someone with a true want, remember want? Want: To desire greatly; wish for: To have need: The condition or quality of lacking something usual or necessary. There is nothing more necessary than salvation in Christ Jesus. After all, things on this earth will all pass away, but the gift of Salvation is eternal.
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